Monday, December 30, 2013

Books of 2013

I was hoping to add one more book to the list, but I know that I'm not going to finish it by tomorrow night, so the following is a list of the books I read this year: 

1.  Bird by Bird---Anne Lamott
2.  The Mill River Recluse---Darci Chan
3.  On Writing---Stephen King
4.  Because We Are---Ted Oswald
5.  Astrid and Veronika---Linda Olsson
6.  The Kite Runner---Khaled Hosseini
7.  Water for Elephants---Sarah Gruen
8.  Lost and Found---Jacqueline Sheehan
9.  What was Lost--Katherine O'Flynn
10.  The Birds of East Africa---Nicholas Drayson
11.  The Call---Yannick Murphy
12.  Warm Bodies---Isaac Marion
13.  A Virtuous Woman---Kaye Gibbons
14.  The Monk Upstairs--Tim Farrington
15.  The Book Thief---Markus Zusak
16.  The Lovely Bones---Alice Sebold
17.  Garden Spells---Sarah Addison Allen

I already wrote a review about The Book Thief.  It's definitely my favorite book among all the fiction I read this year.
There are two books where I really loved the characters, although not necessarily the book itself.  I enjoyed Lost and Found by Jacqueline Sheehan and What was Lost by Katherine O'Flynn.  In Lost and Found, I really enjoyed the author's depiction of the black labrador, so much so that it made me want a dog.  I really enjoyed Katherine O'Flynn's characters in her book and found the main protagonist really believable.

Have you read any of these books?  What book(s) did you read this year?

Tuesday, December 24, 2013

Happy Holidays!

 

 
With a pending busy holiday schedule, I wanted to take time to wish everyone a Happy Holiday.  My year started out on a sad note, but I hope to end it on a happy note.  There might be a future post reflecting back on the year, but for now, I'm going to keep it short and simple.
 
 
Happy Holidays to you and yours.  May you be happy and filled with joy.

Sunday, December 22, 2013

Say Something



 
"Say Something," by the band, A Great Big World, is bit a depressing.  I've been listening to this song on the radio the last few weeks.  The lyrics speak to me and I really love the piano accompaniment, but it's such a sad song that sometimes I can't listen to it and will have to change the station.  If I'm in a particular mood, this song can really make me weep.

Recently, I came across this variation of the song which features Christina Aguilera.  There's also a video showcasing the collaboration between the band and Christina, but I find that their performance at the 2013 American Music Awards to be the best version of the song.  (I can really hear the vulnerability in their voices.)  Somehow, I find that the addition of  Christina's vocal adds some depth to the song and I'm less focused on the song's inherent sadness, and I'm focusing on the artistry and harmonizing of vocals.

Have you heard this song?  Will you say something on this blog?  I might just have to give up on you.

Here's the link to their video:  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-2U0Ivkn2Ds

Saturday, December 21, 2013

Adult Tricycle


It's the most awesomest bike ever.  It's a three wheel bicycle, with a basket in the back!  I call it an "adult tricycle."  I brought it home last night and I can't wait to fix it up and ride it in the spring.

At a party several weeks ago, a friend asked if anybody wanted the bicycle.  Apparently, the owner was moving and had to downsize.  I was one of several that expressed interest, but I think I was the only one who would actually use it.   So, I became the lucky owner of this awesome bike.

Last night, I met the owner of the bicycle and discovered that he's a gentle soul.  I promised him I would take good care of it.  He's so funny because he told me the basket's so big, I could fit a goat in it.  For some unknown reason, this bicycle makes me very happy.  I love the multi-color detail by the front tire, the fact that the body is yellow, the big black cushy seat, and even the little red reflector light on the basket.  Can you tell how much I'm in love with this bike?  I can't wait until spring.

Have you ever seen a three wheel bicycle before?  What's making you happy lately?

Friday, December 20, 2013

Friday's Quote: Thomas Dekker

"We are ne'er like angels till our passion dies."---Thomas Dekker 

 

Thomas Dekker's quote implies that human beings, not angels, have passion.  As human beings, we have a multitude of passion.  Sometimes, someone's passion has the power to move another.  Today, I want to share a letter I found to be not only filled with passion, but also very moving.  The letter is written by Shin Dong-hyuk and is addressed to Dennis Rodman.  Mr. Dong-hyuk is a human rights activist and the only known person born in a North Korean camp and to have escaped to the West.

 

I don't think the letter's that long, although it may look like it to some, but please take some time and read through the letter.  The following is Mr. Dong-hyuk's letter as it appeared on December 17, 2013 in the Washington Post:


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Dear Mr. Rodman:

I have never met you, and until you visited North Korea in February I had never heard of you. Now I know very well that you are a famous, retired American basketball player with many tattoos. I also understand that you are returning this week to North Korea to coach basketball and perhaps visit for the third time with the country’s dictator, Kim Jong Un, who has become your friend.

I want to tell you about myself. I was born in 1982 in Camp 14, a political prison in the mountains of North Korea. For more than 50 years, Kim Jong Un, his father and his grandfather have used prisons such as Camp 14 to punish, starve and work to death people who the regime decides are a threat.  Prisoners are sent to places like Camp 14 without trial and in secret. A prisoner’s “crime” can be his relation by blood to someone the regime believes is a wrongdoer or wrong-thinker. My crime was to be born as the son of a man whose brother fled to South Korea in the 1950s. 

You can see satellite pictures of Camp 14 and four other labor camps on your smartphone. At this very moment, people are starving in these camps. Others are being beaten, and someone soon will be publicly executed as a lesson to other prisoners to work hard and obey the rules. I grew up watching these executions, including the hanging of my mother.

On orders of the guards in Camp 14, inmates are forced to marry and create children to be raised by guards to be disposable slaves. Until I escaped in 2005, I was one of those slaves. My body is covered with scars from torture I endured in the camp.

Mr. Rodman, if you want to know more about me, I will send you a book about my life, “Escape From Camp 14.” Along with the stories of many other camp survivors, my story helped persuade the United Nations to create a commission of inquiry that is now investigating human rights atrocities in my country. I was “witness number one.” In the coming year, the commission’s findings may force the U.N. Security Council to decide whether to approve a trial in the International Criminal Court of the Kim family and other North Korean officials for crimes against humanity.

I happen to be about the same age as your friend Kim Jong Un. But if you ask him about me, he is likely to refer to me as “human scum.” That is how his state-controlled press refers to me and all other North Koreans who have risked death by fleeing the country. Your friend probably also will deny that Camp 14 exists, which is the official position of his government. If he does, you can show him pictures of it on your phone.

Mr. Rodman, I cannot presume to tell you to cancel your trip to North Korea. It is your right as an American to travel wherever you wish and to say whatever you want. It is your right to drink fancy wines and enjoy yourself in luxurious parties, as you reportedly did in your previous trips to Pyongyang. But as you have a fun time with the dictator, please try to think about what he and his family have done and continue to do. Just last week, Kim Jong Un ordered the execution of his uncle. Recent satellite pictures show that some of the North’s labor camps, including Camp 14, may be expanding. The U.N. World Food Programme says four out of five North Koreans are hungry. Severe malnutrition has stunted and cognitively impaired hundreds of thousands of children. Young North Korean women fleeing the country in search of food are often sold into human-trafficking rings in China and beyond.

I am writing to you, Mr. Rodman, because, more than anything else, I want Kim Jong Un to hear the cries of his people. Maybe you could use your friendship and your time together to help him understand that he has the power to close the camps and rebuild the country’s economy so everyone can afford to eat.

No dictatorship lasts forever. Freedom will come to North Korea someday. When it does, my wish is that you will have, in some way, helped bring about change. I end this letter in the hope that you can use your friendship with the dictator to be a friend to the North Korean people.
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The webpage to this letter can be found here.

Did you feel Mr. Dong-hyuk's passion in his letter?  Did it move you?

Wednesday, December 18, 2013

Regifted Gift


(Should I regift this regifted gift that I was gifted?)

Tuesday, December 17, 2013

Annual Christmas Book Gifting

Every Christmas, an old high school friend and I gift each other with a book.  We send to each other a book of our choosing, with high hopes that the other will like the book that was gifted to her (at least that's my hope).  It started sometime in 2008 or 2009, where she gifted to me a book that I already read and owned, and I gifted to her a cookbook.  Since that time, we've been sending the other a book as a gift.  It was so unintentional, but has turned into a tradition that I love.  It's so low key, there are no expectations, and I enjoy the surprise of discovering what book she sent to me.  I'd rather have a book than some kind of trinket or Christmas "junk."  I also love giving away books too.

So, I've read every book she's sent to me.  I will admit that I've enjoyed some more than others, and I'm sure that's true of her too.  I've read every book I've sent to her (or have it on my "to read list").  I wonder if she's read all the books she's sent to me.  Anyhow, I'd love to have a conversation with her one of these days and talk about the books we've been sending to one another.

I've already received her book for this year.  As usual, I'm always a bit late in sending mine, but at least I've gotten my book already picked out and partially packaged.  I hope she likes the book.  I think I'm going to start keeping track of the books I've sent to her so that I don't send her one that I've already given to her (yeah, I'm so old that I'm beginning to forget).

Do you have any Christmas traditions with family members or friends that you'd like to share?

Sunday, December 15, 2013

My Awesome Fonts

My trial font.  How cute, cool, and kooky?
I've been busy working on one of my creative projects.  Somehow, me working on it lead to something else, which lead me to something else.  I eventually came across this blogger that mentioned an app she purchased called iFontMaker.  It allows one to make her own fonts on a tablet or computer.  How awesome is that?  I've been wanting to make my own fonts for the longest time, but it's time consuming.  I know that for something much more complicated and detailed, I will have to follow the "old" method, but for a simple set of alphabets, this app is awesome.

So, I purchased that app and tried it out.  I LOVE IT!!!  So cool.  I came up with my own font.  Whether it I actually use it, who knows.  Don't ask me why my letter "E" has two "8" and a smiley face next to it.  It just does because it's my font.  Also, my letter "Z" is supposed to be wearing a mask and has a mustache, like "Zorro."  

What do you think of my trial font letters?

To purchase iFontMaker, just Google it and you can purchase it from the Windows or Apple store.

Check out the blogger's story of using iFontMaker at:  http://deborahmarcero.com/hand-drawn-font-making-app/

If you want to find out more about the "older" way of making your own font, check out this webpage: http://howto.wired.com/wiki/Create_Your_Own_Font

Thursday, December 12, 2013

Dear Friend,

I've written to you before.   Again, I write this specifically for you.  You told me that you haven't been reading my blog lately.  I hope that if and when you do, you will see this post.  

Why am I writing this to you?  Well, I've been slowly making my peace and showing gratitude to those that have made an impact on my life.  Now, I've already written you two stories, which are really expressions of my gratitude, but you didn't like my stories ("MM" and "CVS").  So, I guess this is my last attempt to tell you my gratitude, in a very transparent and public way. 

My Friend, saying that you've made an impact on my life is an understatement.  You have been my constant companion for the last ten years.  Your love is like the sun behind clouds; always present, even when I couldn't see it.  You've held my hand through some of the toughest periods of my life.  You've been patient with me, even when all others have given up and left.  You've given me your love, even when I felt I least deserved it.  You've forgiven me, when I really didn't deserve it. 

I thank you for all that you have done for me.  Thank you for loving me.  Thank you for being my best friend for so long.  Thank you for allowing me to be a part of your life and a part of your story.  Thank you for your time.  Thank you for stretching your heart so wide that it covered me and helped me weather through all the storms that I came across.  Thank you for just being you.  I really don't think I can ever thank you enough.

Friend, I will take your advice and live one day at a time.  Like you, I too shall cultivate my hopes and dreams.  And like you, I shall take what life gives to me on a daily basis.  I don't know what the future holds and I will stop trying to figure it out.  What I do know is that I would've never gotten this far along without you.  I will continue to hold you in my heart.  I will continue to love you. I will continue to only wish wonderful things for you and your life.

Thank you.

Sunday, December 8, 2013

Nco Kuv Me Me



I have a really embarrassing secret to share.  I don't even know why I'm sharing it.  I've been wanting to better my Hmong.  I hardly have the opportunity to speak it with others and I really don't know how to read and write it.  So, here's my shameful secret . . . I go and watch YouTube to learn how to speak and read Hmong, and to learn new Hmong words.  I don't do this often, but it's my number one way to learn Hmong.  (I'll save for another time, my other embarrassing method of learning to read and write Hmong.)

So one of the songs I've learned from is called Nco Kuv Me Me.  Literally translated, it says "Miss Me a Little Bit."  The original singer of the song is Lue Yang, but there's a more modern version of the song by the artist Kaishek Vang.  I love both songs, but I was only able to find the modern version that had the lyrics on the screen.  Check it out  you have time.  If you want to check the original version by Lue Yang, check out this webpage:  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mAPtRiu7D6o

Do you know how to read and write Hmong?

Saturday, December 7, 2013

My One Big "Do Over"

Do you have one "do over" that you wish you could have?  I do.  

I was rewatching the movie "13 Going on 30."  It's such a kooky and charming movie.  The movie came out in 2004 and stars Jennifer Garner, whose character is named Jenna.  In the middle of the movie, Jenna asks her mother if she could have a "do over" and what would it be.  Of course, her mother says that she wouldn't do anything over because all of her experiences contributed to making her the person she is.

I'm in agreement with that statement.  I like to think I still have a lot of living to do, and so far I don't have regrets or would change any of my experiences.  Yes, that includes my chaotic upbringing, the lonely paths I've taken in my life to reach my dreams, and even my bad relationship choices (yes dude, I don't regret you).

But like I said, if there's one do over I could have, I would redo this one moment in time:  I would tell my brother that I loved him before he died. I don't even see this "do over" as a regret or even changing my experience.  I'm not wishing that the situation would've never happened because I can't speculate on what could've been done by may family and me to save him (and it would drive me nuts thinking about all the "what if" scenarios).  Instead, I like to think that I could've added more to my life experience by being more expressive and letting my brother know that he is loved.  So that is my one do over I wish I could have.

Do you have a "do over" you wish you could have?

Friday, December 6, 2013

Friday's Quote: Robert Louis Stevenson

"To forget oneself is to be happy."---Robert Louis Stevenson


I've been thinking too much about myself lately.  (During Thanksgiving, other than taking my nephew shopping, I only shopped for myself.)  It sounds horrible, but it's not that bad.  I realize that it was something I had to go through in order to balance myself and my life.  I've been taking care of people all my life and have thought so little of myself.  I've cared for my family, even when I'm far away, and for the first time in a long time, I actually had the energy and time to just focus on me.  Even when my beau and I were living together, I think I took good care of him.  Of course, he took care of me too, but I think I did more of the emotional work.  So, lately it's been all about me, myself, and I.

Now, I will continue to care for myself, but I think I'm ready to put myself on the back burner for a bit and focus on other things and other people.  I've been slowly participating in several projects occurring outside of my life and my normal work hours, and so far I've been happy with the experiences.  I've always known that I'm happiest when I'm useful and helpful to others, and I'd like to continue participating in these opportunities.  This cuts into some of my time of writing and working on my creative "projects" (e.g. quilt making, scarf making, upholstery), but I will make time and finally stop procrastinating.  I'm excited to see what else comes my way.

What do you focus on, outside of yourself, that makes you happy?  Or do you need to take time to focus on yourself so that you can focus on others?

Thursday, December 5, 2013

Dear Winter,

I know you must come every year.  Especially to this part of the world.  It just has to happen.  Without you, the moose will continue to die off, there would be no ice skating on the lakes, and you provide a really good excuse for me to stay home and do nothing.

Yet, must it be this cold?  This morning was 7 degrees F.  Today's high is supposed to be 10 degrees F.  Yes, I know all the jokes about the cold keeping the rift raft out of Minnesota and building that distinct character that's "Minnesotian," but does it really have to be so cold?  I know that none of my siblings will move here to live on a permanent basis.  Even my dear friend, who swears that she'll come here first if she ever decides to move, will immediately leave after experiencing her first real winter.

Today, I regret not accepting all the marriage proposals I've had from those who didn't live in Minnesota.  I'm also regretting not accepting the marriage proposals from those who did live in Minnesota and agreed to move elsewhere.  What is wrong with me?  I guess I'm a sucker for you, Winter.  I'm a big sucker.

So, Winter, please keep the cold to a minimum.  I know it's supposed to be very very frigid this whole week, but if you do intend to go -20 degrees F, then please do it over this weekend.  At least that way, I can pour boiling water outside and see it instantly turn into vapor (hey, I'm trying to be positive here, even at a scientific level).

Wednesday, December 4, 2013

It's a Winter Wonderland

"Good Morning!" said the snow.