Tuesday's Tune: Running

"Running" isn't one of No Doubt's biggest commercial hits, but it's definitely one of my favorite songs from the band. (I really love this song.)  I remember listening to it when it was first released ans somehow, I came across this song while surfing YouTube, so I now want to share it with you. 

It's inevitable that time changes everything and nothing stays static.  Sometimes I wish I could just freeze time and live in the moment forever.  Yet, life goes on and the only thing I can hope for is that the people I love will stay with me or that I don't get separated from them.  It's finding that balance to staying connected but not holding one another behind.  It's hoping that we all follow our own paths, but hoping that the paths don't diverge too far from one another so that we can still keep up with one another.  And if our paths do take us far from each other, I hope that our paths will intersect again, so we can find one another again.

What do you think of this song?  

Thoughts About Waiting

When I wrote this blog post, I was actually thinking about my son.  At that time, he was in utero and I was probably going through a hormonal phase during my pregnancy (seriously, it's hard to pinpoint a time during my pregnancy when I was not hormonal).  

As an older first time mom, I pondered about my decision to wait so long to have my first child.  I can say, so far, that as an older mom, I'm definitely more patient and definitely appreciate the parenting experience.  I also can say that I really wanted this child in my life.  If I had my child at a younger age, I still would've loved him just as much, but I really don't think I would've appreciated him or the experience as much.

The other aspect that I really pondered about is the life experience my son would have, with me making him wait to come into this world.  I admit, I remember being really emotional because I believe that he's waited a long time.  On the one hand, by making him wait, both of his parents would be a lot older by the time he was born, but at the same time, I really wanted him to have a father that would want him just as much as I wanted him.  To be quite honest, I couldn't imagine having children with anybody else than my Mr. Man.  I know that that there have been suitors  and people I thought that could've been potential fathers, but in the end, I knew that Mr. Man would've wanted him just as much as I wanted him.

So, I hope my son will forgive me for making him wait.  I also hope that my son would feel the love that his father and I have for him, and know that he came into the world with both of us equally wanting him in our lives.

Hat and Socks

Tuesday's Tune: Baby Baby

This song, "Baby Baby" by Amy Grant came out when I was in high school.  It was such a big hit back then.  Similar to this song, "Baby Baby" is not just a song about romantic love.  Apparently, this song was written right around the time Amy Grant gave birth to her daughter, and the song's reference of "baby" really refers to her baby daughter.

Is it any surprise that I have baby on the brain?  Other than going through all the motions of a new mom, I'm learning patience.  I'm also learning to be grateful that I have the sweetest newborn in the world.  He's a newborn and will cry when he needs to eat, be changed, or be comforted (like all other newborns).  Yet, he's so calm.  I'm realizing how lucky I am to have him just as he is and to love him with the "sweetest of devotion."

Let me know what you think of the song from the past.

Bleary-Eyed and Sleep Deprived

With the arrival of my Little One, I've been lacking in sleep.   My brain isn't always the clearest, especially with the lack of sleep.  Tired, is an understatement.  I'm exhausted!  

I'm also frustrated because I've been trying to learn more about my Little One and what he's communicating to me.  Despite my frustrations, he is the love of my life.  It's funny that I've put off having a child for so long, but when it finally came time to have him, I really wanted him in my life. So, during the 2 a.m. feedings and the lack of sleep (when his cuteness is no longer a factor), I remember how much I wanted him in my life, how much I love him, and how I must stretch my heart out even bigger than before.  All just for him.

I hope you are getting your sleep.  Wish me well on my journey with little sleep.  Hopefully, I'll be able to get my Little One on a sleep schedule soon.

Little One

Nesting

I've been nesting.  And yes, I'm announcing that my Mr. Man and I are expecting our first child together.  It's an adventure that we started on together last year and our little one should be here soon. It's been quite an adventure so far, even though it's not one that takes me far away from my home. I've been tired and not really feeling like myself.  So, even though I want to blog more often, write more often, and do activities that I once loved so much (hiking, gardening, reading, photography), I'm feeling like a zombie and have not dune much.  Except for nesting.  Somehow, there's an urge inside of me that makes me want to clean and prepare for my little one.  I guess that's my natural instincts kicking in.

As I've learned to enjoy the adventure I've been on, I'm also ready to have my body back too.  I know my life is going to change drastically once my little one is here, I guess that's probably why I've been so concerned with nesting and getting things ready.  I'll try and blog more, but I can't guarantee.  I hope you're doing well.

A Gift

Taken on February 27, 2016.

This past weekend was a weather showcase of polar opposites.  On Saturday, the weather got up into the high 50s and it really felt like a nice spring day.  I was so glad I took time out of my day to go stroll outside and and to really enjoy the sun.  The skies were so blue and I didn't even need my winter coat.  It was such a gift and I was grateful to Mother Nature  for gifting such a sunny and wonderful day.

Then on Sunday, there were flurries in the morning and the sky remained overcast all day long.  It got colder, obviously if there were flurries, and the wind picked up.  It wasn't as nice as Saturday, but it was a good reminder that it's still winter.

Do you see how the gray sky is reflected in the building windows?  Taken on February 28, 2016.

As I said before, I really looked forward to this winter, but I feel cheated this year because we've had such a mild winter.  With spring just around the corner, I wonder if Old Man Winter will try to throw in one or two more snowstorms before 

My Valentine's Cake

[Taken February 14, 2016.]

A Surprise . . . For Me

Yesterday, I walked in to what I thought was a potluck lunch, but turned out to be a surprise party thrown in my favor.  To say that I was shocked, is an understatement.  I was in complete disbelief and I teared up when I realized what was going on.

Apparently, my friends had been planning this party for some time.  They even informed my Mr. Man of it and he did a really great job keeping it quiet.  I was so humbled by their generosity and thoughtfulness.  

The party was low key, but so fun.  There were a lot of yummy foods, we had a lot of laughs, and we all, especially me, shared stories.  Like how all good modern day parties should be, we all enjoyed one another's presence and each other's company (and for an afternoon, put away our cell phones and ignored social media).  

I still have to send out my thank you cards, but I don't know how I can ever thank them enough.  I feel so blessed to have these women in my life, and to know that they thought of me is so very moving.  I don't get surprise parties as an adult, and I usually don't like surprise parties, but this one is one I will keep forever in my heart.